Getting close...

I leave for Japan in under two weeks.  I am nervous, but not in a way you might think.  I am just afraid something is going to happen and I will have to come home right away, like I did in Africa.  I just can't convince myself that this time it will be different.  It is hard because I put everything I had into going to Africa.  I am afraid to put all I have into Japan, what if I fail?  

I talked to a friend today that has been to Ghana.  I haven't really talked to her since I have been home, so I had to tell her all that happened.  I must admit I had been kind of avoiding her just because she has been there.  I know it is dumb, but I have been doing it.